As I quietly slip away from the frantic practice that most people call “productive life”, I simply sit. I bask in the sun lounging on this plain 4-legged wooden chair that rests in the garden beside my house.
And I start hearing things. A beetle creeps along the bases of the begonias. A bee sips the nectar from a nearby flower. A field mouse hurries along the side of our domicile towards his dwelling. The soft southern winds gently caress the leaves of the majestic hundred year old oak tree which towers above me. I am the spectator of a Zen-like symphony that can only be played by this celestial universal energy that radiates through the various life-forces and entities partaking in this cosmic but yet relatively minute musical dance.
And I start seeing things. The sun’s waves radiate 6 to 10 feet above the ground in a sort of energetic tango that creates ripples in time and space. The purity of the colors emanating from the grass, tree trunks, clouds and water suddenly jumps up at me as if I was a blind man who abruptly found his sight for the first time.
And I start feeling things. An unassuming confidence and a soothing mental clarity bestow their healing powers upon me. My direction is now so clear; follow the wind. Set your sail and trust that you will not be misguided. Resistance dissipates as I feel an ease slowly take control of my dreams, desires and intentions; it all feels so precise!
And I start realizing things. I am not my past. I am not my critics. I am not my self-defeating self-judgements. I am here, now and forever. I am calm, strong and capable. I am not alone and must continue sharing my soul with others, focusing on the positive and simply allowing the negative, they are all the same; yin-yang. I am this moment; this moment is me, nothing more and nothing less.
Even though fruitful and creative are synonyms of productive, I ponder the validity of these relationships. My morning has been quite “unproductive” by industrial definition, but yet it has been so helpful, serenely dynamic and ever-so replenishing.
I now rise a fully present person. I am. I am alive. I am authentic. I am loving, I am love. I am a teacher, a mentor, a guide. But yet I am a student, a disciple, a searching spirit. I am a warrior, but I heed forth with the belief that the strongest warrior is the one who does not need to fight; this is tattooed on my chest, inked on my heart and embossed upon me. I am a leader but yet I direct, manage and lead nobody, I serve. I provide to anyone who need my assistance. I am a visionary; I see what is and can be within myself and within others.
Sitting in the garden of Life, I am and I allow you to be!
_ _ _ _ _ _ _Nikolaï RAY, personal development companion and leadership 2.0 specialist
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